These past several months has been a CRAZY roller coaster ride. I don’t mean Disneyland California Screamin’, even though I felt like screaming many times. I mean like Six Flags Tatsu or X2. No lie. Oh yeah, sorry if you didn’t get that comparison.
Basically, it felt like a roller coaster with it’s drastic drops, unexpected bumps and the feeling of riding at 100 miles per hour.
I had checklists on checklists. They don’t stop. They just keep growing to the point I can’t keep up.
Summer school? ✓
GRE test? ✓
Dietetic Internship Application? ✓
Projects at work? ✓
Lead nutrition groups weekly? ✓
Train new workers at work? ✓
Balance Instagram/blogging? ✓
Maintain my own mental and emotional health? ✓
Take time to spend with others? ✓
Me time? ✓
Reminding myself WHY I do what I do? ✓
In the midst of it all, I’ve had many more small checklists. Many of which I didn’t do too well on.
The biggest stressor in this list was my dietetic internship applications. I stressed a lot over those applications because it was the overall umbrella of why I was taking the GRE, studying, taking summer school, etc.
Though all of this, the most important thing I got out of it wasn’t only being accepted into an internship (Praise the Lord!!!! *shed a tear) but it was really how I have personally grown.
1. Stress is a necessary part of life.
It’s fine to be stressed. It’s also fine to have feelings of sadness or discouragement. Growing up, I got angry with myself if I felt hurt from other people. I would get irritated with myself with I was sad or discouraged. I didn’t like the feeling of having external sources causing me to feel feelings. However, These are all feelings that are are necessary to feel since we’re human.
Let’s talk about the next step. When you realize you’re stressed, what do you do? Do you sit there and only keep talking about how stressed you are? Or do you put effort into learning how to deal with it better? Do you make sure you get your fair share of talking about it – and then make necessary changes? If you can’t change the situation, change your mindset on how the stress isn’t long term. It’s only because there is something greater to come. Allow yourself to have feelings but don’t allow your feelings to have you. Don’t allow your current feelings to consume you to the point where you lose sight of the bigger picture and your future. I believe stress is necessary as a part of personal life, work and school.
2. This process is like a roller coaster ride, always unexpected with it’s twists and turns.
Basically, this entire entire application process is like a roller coaster with drastic drops (sometimes fun, other times not), unexpected road-bumps and sometimes… feeling like your mind is going at 100 mph to get everything done.
Time management is key. Learning how to shift your perspective and be flexible with possible changes is essential. It’s a roller coaster and at times.. I’d want to get off. You will encounter situations that make you want to get off the ride but I learned to persevere through it. Well, it was totally worth it!
3. God is sovereign and He’s got you!
One of my favorite verses has been Proverbs 16:9.
The heart of man plans his way,
but the Lord establishes his steps.
I love this verse because there was times when I feel like I have it all under control. I feel like my human efforts are good enough to plan out everything. Sometimes, the plans do come though and other times… nope. During these last couple months, I had to be reminded to trust in God’s sovereign plan. I obviously made goals for myself and worked diligently towards them. However, my own planning can only go so far until God decides sometimes else is better for me. Yes, BETTER for me.
4. Share concerns, struggles and worries with others.
This is one of the hardest things for me. I don’t like to be open about my stress, concerns or struggles. To me, this appears as weakness. However, IT ISN’T. It’s human. When I was able to share with others how stressed I was and how hard it was to make time for everything, it allowed others to help me out. For example, I shared a lot with my friends. I text many of my closest friends often and they always reply with consistent encouragements and prayers to help get me through the rough days. Also, my boyfriend gave me LOTS of good pep talks which helped me reset my perspective. Overall, having people I can share how I feel has helped me continue to pursue my goals and remember WHY I want to do this.
5. Caring for ourselves is important.
Oh man, this was difficult. I was in “go-mode” ALL the time. If I wasn’t at work, I was working on my apps. I rarely gave myself any time to rest for a good couple weeks as the last submission day approached. I often get so caught up with my goals and the future, I forget to enjoy the current. I forget to allow myself to breathe and take it one step at a time. My mind gets crowded with a bunch of tasks and deadlines. This often wears me out and causes more stress.
During this process, I learned that I needed to learn how to manage my time better in order to take care of myself. I made sure I had time to rest which meant going to the gym, spending time with friends/family and cooking. These three all help me destress because they are all enjoyment to me. Taking care of myself is something I need to try doing more consistently. Making time to take care of ourselves is critical for your overall health.
Also, award yourself once in a while. Get yourself a donut, a cupcake or your favorite type of dessert. You deserve to treat yourself!
Overall, this process has been crazy. It’s been rough, challenging and has pushed me out of my comfort zone.
I look forward to my journey to becoming a Registered Dietitian with great joy and passion to serve others! Praise God for bringing me here & I thank Him for this amazing opportunity!
If you have any questions, please let me know!
I’m working on another blog post on some tips on getting matched to an internship!